Last msg from me to him

Few weeks ago,

i shuddered at the thought of being immured in my room,
In the office, i seemed to become transformed,

and the contrast was even more noticeable by my taciturn character
as if i'm surrounded by the veil of gloom
until today, i received a very very very simple msg from 'him'
a short and normal msg,
but it definitely make my days...

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Last weekends, im back to Malacca again
Meeting up with cuzzie and chilled around
- but no pictures cause i'm not going to post -

and we went shopping again.. whee~
let me shows u some best buy..

1. Grey cute jumpsuit
(i know, it is so not my age.. but i dun care)

2. Toga blouse
(I know, toga toga toga again.. but i like it)
3. MNG inspired tank top
(I know i know, tank top again .. and i really shud stop buying it)
4. FOS spag..
(I just LOVE normal and comfortable clothes)
I've so many things to blog yet so LITTLE time
and i've not been blog about my last bangkok trip,
pictures were stil in my lovey dovey camera..

but let me reveal a lil bit of my BKK's puchase
Taaraa !
*Gee, i miss Bangkok but i miss him more*
Pst: Is this what they said as buying compulsive disorder ?!
Nah ~ i dun think so ...

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Steamboat anyone ?
i'm craving for steamboat again...

Last few weeks, dad brought me to try those
very very superbly traditional steamboat stall
No special soup, no tomyam, no nothing
but they had 3 special sauce : Satay, cili and sweet and spicy sauce

Yummy~ how i wish that i can bring him to taste this
superbly traditional steamboat!

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Today, i had a short talk with my junior in the office about r/s and marriage
I told her :
You never know what you have until you lose it,
and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

You'll miss all the little things.
Like him driving with his hand resting on my knee
and the way wed share a big gooey ice cream.
But I especially miss the moment when he was all around me,
the taste, and the scent and the feel of him.
And Id fall asleep in his arms,
with the sound of his heartbeat being the last thing I heard before going to sleep.
I ache with longing.
But it's too late !

My friends had been scolding me for turned down
1. Cute Singaporean hairstylist that drives Porsche
2. A smart geek that will provide you a better life
3. A good looking guy that may clubs all night long with you
but this is not what i want..
not now or in the future.. for sure!
I never thought it was worth it, waiting for a nonreturnable love!
but now I'm sitting here like a humpy dumpy on the wall waiting for him !
and it ain't fun at all, i feel miserable..!
So i think this is the last time i would write my true feeling to him in this blog

Dear Js,

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those were some of the best times of my life.

I don't write to tell you that I love you, nor to ask you for explanations that now are not on time. I just write you to express my feelings in this short paragraph. I want to tell you that I really loved you as I demonstrated you. I don't know what happened. But It is too late. I hope you can find your love. Good Bye my dear love

Love, Lynette

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