I shall leave

One day these wandering urges overtake me and I decided to get out of this place.
I hesitate here. I know what I want to do, I know what I want to say, but I'm not sure that I can explain it.
I just blurt it out.
"I don't know. I just want to leave this unhappy house, unhappy place”
Im miserable living in this place that fulls of irrational feeling

What's holding me over here ?
So why not I just leave