To my dearest grandpa

Life's too short to dwell on things
that pull and tear on your heart strings
so park those thoughts that make you worry
and create new goals to which you'll hurry.

Make your list of things to do
that always seemed not part of you
make yourself explore unknowns
write down your thoughts dig up those bones

Take a step toward things that scare you
Show who's boss while mind prepares to
overcome what seems unrealistic
before you lose it and go ballistic

Do something different every day
and watch as life shows new path ways
Life's too short to dwell on things
that pull and tear on your heart strings.

p/s : Forgive, forget. Bear with the faults of others as you would have them bear with yours. Be patient and understanding. Life is too short to be vengeful or malicious.” Love ya

The day after tml

Today is one of those days, feeling down, feeling blue, nothing clicks for me. It’s raining, it’s pouring, and my life seems so boring. Nothing is really wrong, just this overwhelming feeling of nothingness.

Another frequent feeling nothingness, I feel a void, a black hole, an abyss, hollow, and empty space. Basically there is a feeling that something is missing. I feel a hole in our heart, emptiness somewhere in the space of my chest.

Life is full of changes. I, as a person, am changing a bit everyday. I think I am beginning to live a life of nothingness. I do nothing and now don’t feel much and soon would be thinking nothing as well. Thinking doesn’t help, thinking in the right direction helps. I kept on thinking how, when, why and so on but it wasn’t in the right direction. So starting this moment I stop thinking until I realize what that right direction means. Pain has become me. It’s not a stranger anymore; it’s not an uninvited guest. I think the only thing which has been consistent with me is pain so it’s like a buddy now. I have lost all ties with the world. I don’t talk much, sometimes I feel like but then that feeling disappears faster than ever. I have to literally force myself to live, talk or do things.

I started to hate talking , bt sometimes I really hope tat I can just ‘bla-out-everything’ that kept in my mind bt I didn’t, I still feel so lazy and continue being my unimportant person that sat at the corner considering everything that happened or mayB I shall stop being sluggish to stop the feeling of nothingness and boringness that strikes against me. The Cny holiday had been an excuse for me being sluggish.

The first thing I shall do is to post up the 12k picture (34G) for the past 3 months: Bangkok + Singapore trip, Outing with sista(s) , cousins and BF(F). I need to get everything done before I start my work. Taaa !!

Happy Micket Yr 2008

Happy Rat Year everyone!!!

It is the year of the rat, the first of the 12-year cycle of animals in the Chinese zodiac. The rat is supposedly a protector and bringer of material prosperity. Rat is also associated with aggression, wealth, charm, and order, as well as death, war, the occult, pestilence, and atrocities. Yippee.

I am personally just worried that the rats of DC will decide, “It’s OUR year!!” and raise a revolt. Have mercy upon us.

Living in the city, there are some rats that dwell in the alley behind our house. I was disgusted when I first saw them one night, running around my garden. Actually, they were so large; I first thought they were small cats or an opossum or something. But no, those were rats. I saw them again another night and another night. I usually just looked away quickly in horror, but then one night I started to watch them. This one rat just kept going left and right of the garden near the fishpond, over and over. It was hilarious. I would look out the window and –oh!, there he was again! — left and right, up and down. I named him Mr. Choi San Yea. And you know what happens when you name something — it brings me wealth *I Guess*.

There appeared to be the only rat in my garden, though my research on the species indicates that there are always many more, which is a somewhat disgusting thought.

We tried to live peacefully with the rats. This was in part because it is really hard to get rid of rats in the city, so I felt resigned to accepting them as neighbors. Whenever I walked outside, I would greet the world by shouting, clapping my hands, and stomping my feet (the joy of the Lord is my strength, you know) to scare any rats away. All of this may sound insane to my suburban or rural readers, and it is, but just substitute some cuter pesky creature — a raccoon, perhaps — and it may make more sense.

One week later, I still have not heard or seen anything else suspicious (at least not in the creature-in-the-house department), so I am just trying to convince myself it was a squirrel on the roof, or an auditory trick, or the dogs next door. I just pray the year of the rat is *not* the year the rats take over my home. Anyone have a nutcracker and an army of wooden soldiers I could borrow? Or I shall say I need DORAEMON *sobs*

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Lack of updates, I noe.. but
I was effing sick (fever, flu, cough, sore throat) for the past few days during cny
I cant stop myself from Dong Dong Chang for the past 3 days (cough and sneeze)
Mr. Rat , where r u ?!! u neva protect me huh
I tot the rat is supposedly a protector *disappointed*

I need some sleep
I need panadol
I need blanket
*Haachiuuuu*
Taa !!a

Im six feet tall

22nd of Jan 2008 was the last day in coll for me if Im able to pass every single subject for the last semester. It was a big relief to finally get to the end of semester. I still surely have a lot of work to do such as lazy-ing, spring clearning, getting a job, tailor-ing, business-ing, traveling and cny-ing. Gawd !! I need to start brushing, blow-dry and comb-out my hair everyday and get myself used to the tragic traffic jam. But at least, no more attending classes next week and weeks following next week. Hahahaha!! Anyhoo, no more waking up in the morning and driving to campus barely waking up with my pajamas! Early classes usually kept my adrenalin level high by giving me some morning excitement. Thanks god that it has come to an end. Hurray !!

Oh gosh !! U know wert, I ter-swallow the chewing gum that I took last 2 days and I just realized it today *snort*. Yaya, I shud just bang my head on the wall rite now. Well, I guess I shall thanks to my evil bro who’re unintentionally tempting me with his chewing gums and of cos, it’s due to my own greediness too. So I definitely need a reverse bungee session, anybody care to join me ? But on the bright side, at least now i know that a ppl wouldn’t die after swallowing chewing gums for days...oh and I can feel that the gums’ were glued on my intestines and etc. So far so good, looks like my stomach is holding up, haha!

Every ones left – Linda, boyfriend, girlfriend and etc *yawn* I hate the feeling being left alone. Everyday doing nothing, filling my empty days playing Facebook and I start to get bored with it *rolling eye*. Darn, I am sooooooo~~~ boring and lonely. Finish watching 53G movies that kept in my external hard disk (the L word, America Next Top Model (Season 9), Hong Kong Chinese dramas n etc). I’m waiting for another 40G marvelous and sensational movie from Sw *winkz*. But b4 tat I wonder how I am going to make my days more exciting and interesting. If I could choose, of cos I would like to shop, shop and shop but no more shopping spree, as I am abso-abso-absolutely broke at this moment. Oh gawd!! Where is my Genie in the bottle ?!! Taa !!

Moi bday wishlist *wink*

WARNING!!! Shameful wanting ahead

Read on only if you dare!
My birthday is 6 days ahead!
I will be turning 22!

Holy smokes!

That is awfully close to 30 yah?
I'm always in denial when February comes rolling in.
For one, malls start playing Chinese New Year carol... ugh!

Chinese New Year shopping!
And, in few more days I'll be turning a year older. OLD ugh!

So, anyway... I'm putting here my birthday wish list in case the Universe is listening.

So the items on my birthday wishlist are... *drumroll*

1. ASUS EEE (pink)

2. Swarovski USB flash drive

3. Anna Sui Cosmetic or fragrance

4. LV organizer

5. A new puppy *eye rolling*

6. Sony cybershot T2

7. Iphone

So there ya have it. My crazy, unabashed, expensive, list of wants of the moment :)

TAA !! *muakx*

Sometimes I'm fully aware that I'm extremely silly at times.
I'm deeply confused too, to add on that sense of silliness.
There are certain not very nice things that I'm trying to get rid off but it seemed to be an arduous and repetitive process.
Perhaps it shouldn't be called silly but stupid.
There are people out there who added on to that already immense confusion yet I can't seemed to be hardhearted enough to just kick them away.
It's hilarious how the new year resolution was to be more clear-minded,
of course this is just part of the new year resolution.
One of the two actually, whereby the other is already well into process.
I really want to be the one to have the say.
I really want to be able to really flare up big time.
I really want to be able to just lash out on them to stop being so elusive and manipulative.
My frontal lobe and amyglada of my brain is simply not capable enough of handling all these really nasty things.
How I wish I have more guts.
How I really wish that I have more guts to really just be a major bitch.
I somehow realized that each and every time I tried to write something,
it somehow churned out to be not really nice.
Seriously, euphemism has been fucked up a freaking long time ago.
I guess I'm testing my tolerance or a part of me has thrown all kinds of sanguinary feelings and emotions out from the twenty floor.
Somehow it has become habitual to be engaged in imaginary reveries, the only way that can offer some sort of consolation.
It sucks at times. It really sucks.It is at times like this that I seriously need to lament and make myself out to be a pathetic, loserish soul. I'm such a loser.

Engineers Bf

People says

'Engineers are the Best Boyfriends'

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Advantage 1: Secure lifestyleAn engineer boyfriend can provide youwith a secure lifestyle. At 27years old, an engineer probably has arespectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car,invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too. Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law firm. Most management graduates have justfailed on their first business plan.The arts graduate is still looking fora job.And the medical school graduate isstill living in a hospital.

Advantage 2: UnmatchableindustriousnessAn engineer boyfriend will dedicate anunimaginable amount of his timeand effort to understand you.Engineers strain really really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work,once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they willjust keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you. The Management graduate who will try to control your spending, The Arts graduate who will 'change major'.And the medical school graduate who will operate on you.

And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineer s believe that You are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their project and they will be hooked to you forever.

Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriendwill never betray your trust. Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others - The lawyers will lie about everything. Management graduates will cheat your money.The arts graduate will flirt, and youprobably just look like anothercadaver to the medical school graduate.Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and evenif he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to lie to you.So girls, what are you waiting for...

Faster go and grab an Engineer?


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